May Goals

. . . May’s goals . . .¬†

1). NO pizza. I always give something up each month. The reason I am choosing pizza is because it’s my absolute favorite food, and I want to get it back to a status of being a “treat” now and then instead of eating it often / regularly.

2). I’d like to be down 5-8 lbs toward my goal weight by the end of the month. I only have 13 total left so I think 5-8 is a good chunk without being overwhelming.

3). Actually get the 45 miles in May done for the 45 in May swap ūüôā

4). Start and maintain a journal, which I have outlined and made a plan for last night and this morning ūüôā

. . . Well, 10 days in, and I am doing decent with my May goals . . . 

1). I have not had any pizza. ¬†This includes take out, homemade, Hot Pockets and / or Lean¬†Pockets, pizza rolls, etc. ¬†NO pizza whatsoever, and you know what? ¬†I am OKay! ¬†I noticed that after my two months sans ALL sweets, that now, I can eat a piece of candy or have a BITE of a sweet, and I am instantly satiated. ¬†I ate a small brownie this past weekend, and it was far too much. ¬†Considering I am off of soda entirely, with the exception of the Kickstart (damn those!), my habit of giving¬†something up for a month at a time is definitely helping me regulate my bad habits and improve upon what “in moderation” means to my lifestyle.

2). Well, I did not weigh myself May 1st, and so, I can only go by my last weigh in, which was on April 24th. ¬†The current number on the scale is higher than the number that was facing me on the 24th, but because I have been working out again, I attribute this “gain” to muscle weight. ¬†I was also bloated for several days, and I know I am holding water. ¬†SO, I am not overly concerned. ¬†I may weight myself this evening and go from there. ¬†If it’s one thing I have learned, it is that I can have a target number in mind, but I should base my progress on how I feel, and I am feeling fantastic!

3). I have thus far completed 19 miles for the Move It! 45 Miles in May swap. ¬†I am also participating in the Pacific Coast Highway virtual race, which is 113.2 miles. ¬†I need to up my daily distances in order to finish the latter within the month, but I am pleased with my 19 miles thus far. ¬†Unless my May mirrors April’s events, I foresee completing the 45 miles without a hitch. ¬†I am definitely pushing myself to get out there, even when it is the last thing I want to do. ¬†Fun shirts¬†and knee socks help; they keep me happy!

Running for bibliophilia

“Running for bibliophilia.” ¬†Image from my Instagram: idiosyncratic_unicorn

4). The journal . . . eh, not so much. ¬†I need to let go of my tendency to be slightly obsessive-compulsive, in regards to my penmanship and style, and just embrace the journal’s contents and love it for what it is. ¬†I had brainstormed a format that I felt will work well for me, but I have not been successful at actually executing it. ¬†I still have time to follow through, even if it’s only writing my stats down, and then, I can improve upon my process (embellishments, etc.) next month.

So far, so good.  I feel like I am finally on the upswing!

 

Why Write?

So, why start a blog now? ¬†It’s a question I have been asking myself since I’m a serial blog starter. ¬†I’m fantastic with the good intentions, but I dwindle when it comes to the follow through. ¬†In order to understand how I can be successful in maintaining a blog, I have had to soul search and analyze what keeps me from doing so.

First, I get hung up on writing style, grammar, punctuation, so on and so forth. ¬†I am letting that go. ¬†I am going to write how I think, just put ME on virtual paper. ¬†I’ve reminded myself, and I undoubtedly will need to continue to remind myself, that I’m not attempting to publish a professional piece of writing; I’m merely trying to connect with others who are on the same journey that I am. ¬†I want to connect with those who are struggling with taking the first step of their journey. ¬†I want to connect with others who have stumbled along their way. ¬†I want to connect with people who have had nothing but the utmost success. ¬†I just want to connect, and so, to do so, I’m letting go of my need to be “perfect,” to write perfectly, that drive to abide by all of the literary rules. ¬†I want my blog to be a place where I can be candid, open, and just ME, not bound by any confines, even those that I have set for myself. ¬†I¬†am the one that puts myself in the box, and I know it.

Second, I always write thinking about my audience, even when I do not have one. ¬†In order to be successful in keeping this blog, I am accepting that it is perfectly acceptable to do it just for me. ¬†Write because I want to write. ¬†I have spent the majority of my life doing for others. ¬†It’s who I am. ¬†I am a giver – giver of gifts, giver of myself, whatever I can possibly muster to give to someone else, I do.

Finally, my own accountability and motivation are worth the effort. ¬†Daily, I spend the majority of my time in my own head, my own thoughts. ¬†I have come to the realization that I am not learning from my mistakes, my bad days, by letting these thoughts just roll around and bump along in my head. ¬†My fear of writing about my bad days (food fails, lack of exercise, no “fox” left to give) is that it will make the bad days ever more real. ¬†Well, the trips and stumbles are just as real, even when they are merely jostled about in my own brain, yet I am not learning from them. ¬†The missteps are important strides along the path to success, and I will no longer hide them, not even from myself. ¬†I am the very first person to tell others NOT to give up, that stumbles along the way are OKay, and that tomorrow is a new day, an opportunity to try again.

Epiphany: I do not afford myself the same kindness that I invest in others.

Goal: I will learn to be kind to myself, for I am worthy of the same kindness I bestow upon others.