My ‘Give A Damn’ Is Busted

Ugh, I am so very frustrated with myself as of late.  “My give a damn is busted” is not entirely accurate as I DO care; I care a great deal.  However, my motivation has been seriously lacking.  I have not been working out consistently, I have not put any new miles on my running shoes, and I have been lackadaisical, at best, with calorie counting.

With my first 5K in less than 3 months, I really need to shift my butt into gear.  I tell myself that “today is a new day,” and then I proceed to fall flat on my face.  I then tell myself that “tomorrow is a new day,” and I try my very best to not be too hard on myself.  I am still hard on myself, but the key word / phrase is “‘too’ hard on myself.”

I wanted to be at my goal weight by June 3rd, my first 5K.  Coincidence?  No.  And just the fact that I wrote ‘wanted’ . . . as in the past tense, this is an indication that I am constantly self sabotaging myself.  I want to be at my goal weight by June 3rd, and I know that with a lot of hard work, I can achieve this.

So, why do I continually strive along my path of self-sabotage?  How can I motivate myself again?  My journey has been a long one, and I have made it this far.  Why am I so hesitant to throw myself back into the lifestyle I had grown to love?  Why have I seemingly given up, yet have not truly given up?  It’s time to go from 0 to 60, and not tomorrow, not with the new week, not with the new month, but N-O-W.

A stumble is not a failure.  The only failure is quitting, giving up on oneself.

 

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TO DO (Upcoming Events)

Updated: 24 March 2017

My intentions: update this entry as I sign up for additional events.  Though I have not tracked my past / completed activities, I find it worthwhile to begin doing so.  I am fairly certain that with a minuscule trace of effort, I can indeed create a corresponding TO DONE blog featuring 5Ks and 10Ks and obstacle courses that I have already #nailed.

Upcoming:

 Special Olympics: Law Enforcement Torch Run – May 2017!

Safe Voices 5K to End Domestic Violence – June 3, 2017

Color Me Rad 5K – July 15, 2017!

Tough Mountain Challenge – July 29th, 2017!

Dempsey Challenge 10K – October 7th, 2017!